I never could have imagined how hard it be to save animals. When I say hard I don’t mean the work that part is easy, I don’t mind putting in the long hours, I don’t mind spending hours cleaning, washing, grooming, feeding, training, ETC. I love doing all that. When I say hard I mean I wasn’t expecting to have to fight others to be able to save animals. I thought that it was a shared goal to save as many as possible, and I have come to believe that I have a complete different understanding of the word able.
for me being able to do something means you have the ability to do it if you dont have the ability to do something then you are physically incapable of doing it but I was always taught that where there is will there is a way, and I was told I could do anything I set my mind to.
I grew up believing this, I grew up following my heart and dreams, I have not always been where I am today I have a past and there are parts that I am not proud of but there are also parts that I am proud of. The parts that I am not proud of are not who I am they are things I have done or not done mistakes I have worked everyday to correct.
Ever since I could remember, I have been an odd ball, grade school was a complete horror show and my pre-teen years were spent inside of the foster care system. I lost all control in those years I couldn’t do what I wanted, go where I wanted, say what I wanted. and yeah your probably thinking ” suck it up that’s how it is suppose to be at that age”
well it wasn’t that I wanted to stay out late with friends, ( I didn’t have any) I didn’t want to stay up past midnight on a school night, I didn’t want to eat junk food for breakfast, or say bad words, no the things I wanted so bad that I was not allow to do were things like be home with my family, have parents that would nag me about doing my homework, watch Sabrina the teenage which on Friday nights, play in my backyard with my dog Shasta, Watch Law and Order with my auntie that raised me, sleep in my own bed, be able to yell if I got upset or take a nap when I got overwhelmed.
most of all I wanted to be able be upset without having to fear that I would be put on some new medication that would make me like a zombie, I wanted to be able to melt down when the world around me got too much without having four or more adults I did not know pin me down to the ground and hold me until I CALIMED DOWN.
I was an emotional kid, I am a highly sensitive person and back then no one knew what that meant, I also have ADHD and a bunch of other disabilities or at least that is what I have been told.
I’m no doctor maybe I do maybe I don’t. I admit that many of the MISTAKES in my past are me trying to do something and not having the support I need to be successful I failed at being a teen a mom, I can admit I am not the best when it comes to giving others what they need I get overwhelmed, overstimulated and I just don’t understand humans, I think that humans most of them anyway are exactly what is wrong with the world.
BUT animals are different, they pure and they love whole heartedly they don’t use or abuse you they are caring and thankful. they are fun and funny and they are simple they don’t care how much money I have, where I live, what I drive, how I dress, or about any of the other shallow things humans use to judge or base another’s value or worth.
Every time I am around my dogs, my rescues and my not rescues I feel like Im in the right place. I feel like I am where I am needed and wanted most. I love watching them interact with one another and I love watching mamas with their babies how they teach them to play and explore I love how when the teen male pups think they are hot top dog and try to impress the older female how they are knocked down and tossed around ( all in good fun) I love how when I lay down anywhere on the couch on the ground or in bed how they all pile on top one and nestle into me how they all have and know where their spot is and where the other’s is I love laying there and being a part of the grooming snuggle bundle I love they look in their eyes when they discover something new the excitement of finding me to tell me all about it, and even thought I don’t like when any of them gets hurt I love how when one finds themself at the bottle on the rumble jumble or gets their feelings hurt after being corrected by the older ones how they come running to find me and tell me all about how they are just so picked on I love kissing they heads and petting their ears and whispering sweet encouragements and promises of a better tomorrow. I love waking up in the middle of the night and seeing bellies and paws in the air and faced up because I know that its a sign of them being comfortable and feeling safe.
no one has the right to tell me I can not save or that I am not capable of doing this no one asked you, you and your dangerous ordinances and your selfishness and your lack of empathy have no room in our lives.
the town of Windsor has fined me 34,000 dollars because I have more then 4 dogs, Norh Bay Animal Services tries to scare off any organization that we work with including the veterinarians every agency and person who is entrusted with the power to make the community a better place has one thing in mind money money money oh wait and power, at least in this county the shelters and the cities and towns all have worked so hard to create a tight circle that allows them to circulate tax dollars do the bare minimum and act and live like gods all the whiles lives are destroyed and lost.
I know this is long and your probably thinking well I’m not sure but if your still here then maybe you want to hear more. if so be sure to catch part two on youtube where I will pick up where I am leaving off hope to see you there
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